Endless nights

Endless nights thinking about you, watching droplets of rain fall down the glass window racing to see who gets to the bottom first. Skies are dark clouds are grey and the wind smelling like rain but now I’m waiting for the sun to come out but never does  maybe if you were here  by my side the sky would be blue the clouds would be white and the night  sky would be filled with endless stars and the moon shining towards you . Sitting  upon the window staring out hoping a shooting star would pass by to make a wish to make you mine but sadly it never happens endless night thinking about us what we are what we could be and what we can be .

Thorns in her hand from the roses he gave her but she doesn’t mind she doesn’t care because she loves him and nothing stops her from holding the flowers he gave her he just wants to be accepted by him and have him love her for being herself and he does and she’s scared of that which causes her to make stupid mistakes

there she is standing still wind blowing through her hair
her mind is running the space thinking of him and how she could get him back sometimes she thinks turning to her enemy is her solution the razor but she knows well that he wouldn't want that and she's scared that if she loses him shell lose herself into an empty void in space with her own thoughts drowning her sinking her down more and more till she disappears for good ......there he is standing in front of her thinking how beautiful she is and how wonderful his life with her if she was his wife forever and wondering if she's drowning herself again in her own thoughts because he knows her well enough that one day her thoughts and everything she thinks about will kill herself

She is so done with him but she cant seem to let go
Shes tired of holdimg grudes
Tired of him being him
Tired of him not trying
Just plain tired
Theres a soul reason they are together

I cant sleep because  not my body that is tired it is my soul my heart that cannot take more of this pain 

Sleeping dkesnt help anywhere im restless no one to comfort 

Let it hurt until it cant hurt anymore

                                               Friend of mine