I keep telling mysekf I dont need anyone but the truth is no one needs me

All it takes is a beautiful fake smile to hide an ojured soul and they will never notice how broken you are. 
                                         -Katherine

• Friend of mines 

Sometimes I just want to disappear from all reality if im gone will he notice me maybe he wont because im not that visible to the human eye ..if I leave will that make everyone happy I wont be a bother I wont hurt nobody ..nothong bad will happen anymore

Life

Life is just a game & you have to make up the rules as you go

Sometimes its not the past that bothers us its the though of what going to happen in the future , of course your scared because uou dosont want the past to repeat

Im not afraid of you im afraid of the deep dark thoughts after you ...

I was once this girl who wasnt afraid of showing her inner self now im this girl whos afraid of how she'll look now, i dress to impress, im afraid of people knowing who i really am , so i act the opposite of me so they will never know or hurt the real me the other self is tough not afraid of anything people say but at home i get to be free of people amd be me ( never be someone who you reallt arent i learned the hard way dont make my mistakes

I can't take this pain anymore like everyone around me don't care 

I'm overwhelmed with emotions inside me like its over flowing 

I can't take this pain anymore I'm lost looking for an answer 

When nobody is around is when the shadows come creeping up. They see hiw miserable you are and make it worse . they come at your worse moments. "Come my child" they say " dont be afraid of the darkness .

I tore the flowers you left behind as a remjnder you were'nt good enough

He looks deep into my eyes like he can see my pain
Can he ?
Can he see the pain and misery that I've been through
Can he see the people who caused it
Does he look at me because he loves
I see him everyday
I talk to him everyday
He's my best friend , my lover , my universe
The real question I should ask myself dies he really love me ???

The world is cruel place

Everything is fun and games to people until one person gets hurt
And that person always tends to be you
The world is cruel place but you just have to find your way
Through it to really achieve

My love for you is unexplainable
I choose to be with you
I didn't fall in love with you
I walked into love with you
And every step I take I feel like
I'm getting to know you more
As long as you love me I'll stay by your side as forever
My love for you is true

she was on the edge

I was on the edge 

You could've let go but 

You hold on to me with 

Everything you had 

I started slipping away 

But you saved me 

You didn't let me die why 

I don't know 

Maybe I'll never know 

Maybe because you love me 

Or maybe you have pettiness on me 

But I'll never know 

She's falling in love and he doesn't notice her.

She's falling in love and he doesn't notice her
He doesn't love her
Doesn't care about her
Yet she believes the world revolves around him
Everything she does is to make him happy
But he's not satisfied with her
He wants girls wth body
Not the girls with personality
She's falling in love and he doesn't notice her
Her beauty
Her intelligence
Her kindness
How wonderful she is because all he can think about is himself
And nobody else.

Nothing good ever last.

    The most sweetest things will end

the most kindest things will end

nothing continues

nothing good ever last. 

Silicone kingdom.

Hears mom and dad yelling

Mom always wants a divorce

Dad calling Momma a whore, drunk

Been drinking all weekend a couple of coors

A couple of doors were broke in cover the floor, damn

He’s always told never to tell

If anybody finds out he’ll be put in a cell

Hit with a belt

There will be nobody to help

And so he prays everyday

While he’s stuck in this hell

All to himself

He holds every ounce of it in

All the kids who have things always laughing at him

All the teachers see his pain

But he’s playing pretend

Playing with friends

Is something he wishes he can but

Nobody wants to give him a chance

Nobody wants to be with him man

Been looking at the future

But the future is so far in advance

Looking at the alcohol in his hand

Like damn, like why, why god

Why do I do this again and

Why am I getting so drunk

See my dad was a drunk

I don’t wanna be him, I

I know I’m searching for feelings

I thought I could find them in bottles of Gin

I'm tired of losing my faith

And then looking to fake

To replace all my feelings within

I don’t wanna lose myself

Lose my-self

I don’t wanna lose myself

Just to rule

The Silicone Kingdom

With you, with you

She goes to read another message

Ho, Slut, Stupid and fake

She doesn’t know how much she can take

She looking at her body

It's a body that she plans to replace fake

Everything all over her face fake

Smile leads up to her lashes

Never been asked about passion

Only been asked about passing

The blunt to the left or a pic of her chest

Call a bitch and a mess

She’s a wreck

Waiting for a text from a guy

Who tell her that he love her

But he wanna see her cry

Who tell her that he love her

But he beat her every night

With a pipe out of spite

She might leave him for a guy

With a tie and a job

A Mike or a Rob

She’s tired and sobs on the knob of a door

Yelling out “please I can’t take no more”

And he’s yelling out “Fuck you, you cunt, you whore”

Damn she doesn’t wanna be on the news

Only 22 looking down the barrel of a 22

Looking for a move she can make

Looking at the bruise on her face

Never felt safe

Never felt late til the end of the month

Looking down at her stomach like

“what have we done”

I was looking for love

And you were looking for fun

And now a life is in my body

‘cause you wanted to cum

Like why, why god

Why do I do this again and

Why am I thinking that

We can find love inside lust

See we love to pretend, I

I know I’m searching for feelings

I thought I could find them

By fucking with him

I'm tired of losing my faith

And then looking to fake

To replace all my feelings within

I don’t wanna lose myself

Lose my-self

I don’t wanna lose myself

Just to rule

The Silicone Kingdom

With you, with you

He’s addicted to the worlds most dangerous drug

The one that’ll make you lose

Everything that you love

And we don’t understand

Money doesn’t buy love

So we pile up all our money

Just to buy us a new car

Some new rims

A new Benz

Doesn’t have friends no more

An iPod an iPad an iMac

So rich that he’s feeling poor

If he had one chance to go back

Wishes that he never bagged a whore

A couple more coors and a broken door

Shattered decor all over the floor

Coming home at a quarter to four

Coming home is a bore

Looking at a Gin bottle

Got a quarter to pour

At a local titty bar got a better rapport

No cover ones cover the floor

Really looking for more

And more money makes more problems

He don’t understand how to solve em

Doesn’t understand

His son and his wife are his life

Every night when they fight

Now he’s looking at them as a problem

That's a problem

Now he doesn’t know what to do

Out of touch, leaving town

Every weekend or two

Thinking money maybe buy us

All the happiness too

Til he’s sitting in a room

Staring back at a 22

Like what happened to life

I went so many years and I thought I was right

I went so many years never living my life

And I’m scared that my son turns out just like me

Why me, my God

Everything I see really is a facade

Fake love, fake hair, fake nails, fake bod

We replace as a race and we try to play God

Like why, why God

Why do I do this again and

Why am I getting so drunk

See my dad was a drunk

I don’t wanna be him, I

I know I’m searching for feelings

I thought I could find them in bottles of Gin, I

I know we’re thinking that

We can find love inside lust

See we love to pretend, I

I know apart of the problem

Is Silicone Kingdom we’re living within

I'm tired of losing my faith

And then looking to fake

To replace all of my feelings within, I

I don’t wanna lose myself

Lose my-self

I don’t wanna lose myself

Just to rule

The Silicone Kingdom

With you, with you.

Not nice enough.

She's being crowded by the people who think they're everything

She feels she's in a forest

And she's the prey and they are the predators

She's being chased

Attacked

She doesn't know if she will survive

She doesn't know when they will leave her alone

She wants to be like them

But she can't

She's not pretty enough

Not perfect enough

Not nice enough.

Why do people hate me?

I feel physical pain to my heart everyday is another disappointment

Everything I do is wrong I can't do one thing right

Why do I burn everything I touch?

Why am I like this?

Why do people hate me?

Why can't I just die right now?

I'm such a disappointment to everyone I meet.

His broken heart.

She notices the little things about him that nobody notices

His smile

His sadness

The way he's being destroyed in the inside

His scars

His wounds

His broken heart

His destroyed soul

And she wants to find a way to help him

But she can't

Nobody can

He sees destroyed soul

She sees a living soul

A kind soul

One who was once built

But now she's forgotten who she is.

She was once filled with love

With kindness

Not hatred

Not sadness

But now she's forgotten who she is

She's now sad

Destroyed

She feels like people want her gone

She hears the rumors about her

How ugly she is

How mean she is

How imperfect she is

They filled her head with such lies

That now she believes them

It's a rainy day and all I think about is you.

It's a rainy day and all I think about is you

Your smell

Your touch

Your everything

It's the middle of the day yet you haven't left my mind every minute of this hurricane inside my head , I'm being tortured by the though of me knowing I can't have you

Thoughts

my every though of lately have been dark but when I think of you my thoughts go away
My thoughts were evil , mischievous but the thought of you lightens my day

Fear

People aren't what hold us back from moving on fear is what keeps us in place and from moving on